Saturday, July 30, 2005

Up in smoke

So you should get a laugh out of this...Dan and I have wanted to stop smoking for so long. I believe that we both really do want to but it is so much easier to to talk about than to do. Even though we both know that our health should be on the top of the list of reasons to stop to be honest our motive is money. We just simply do not want and really can not afford to buy cigarettes. Plain and simple! I mean really who can? So this weekend rather than buy our normal cartons we actually bought a can of the loose tobacco. I am willing to have to work a little to be able to smoke but there is no way...I just can't smoke without a filter. That just isn't going to happen!
So along with the tobacco we bought a box of 200 filtered papers (they look just like a normal cigarettes with no tobacco in them) and a little tool to fill these with the tobacco. This sounds crazy but we are desperate to save money and this seems like one way to cut corners! So we head out from the store with supplies in hand! The total for about two cartons of cigarettes doing them this way is 17.00!! That is a huge difference from the 36.00 per carton we have been spending. To be honest the first few we made we were barely able to smoke. They were ripped or everything was falling apart! But at last we have gotten the hang of it and it seems to be working out pretty well. We still have a goal of stopping completely... is the question when?

Thursday, July 28, 2005

One more year

I had a great birthday! We took the ferry to Seattle and had a really nice dinner at The Cheesecake Factory. Then we walked around Seattle a little and took the ferry back.
We weren't able to stay out to late because we needed to come home and water the grass/gardens in the front!! HA I'm sure we never thought we would be coming home early to water the lawn! It has been so hot here and with so little rain that everyone is trying to save their grass. The guy across the street from us had a very lovely front lawn when we moved in and now it is all fried and dead! It is so funny to me because they are calling this weather (80's) a HEAT WAVE!! That is such a joke to me. It is in the 50's in the morning and then much warmer in the afternoon! The people around here act as if it 120 outside. In Tampa right it is 87 first thing in the morning so this doesn't seem so bad to me.
Although working in the garage during the day is becoming more uncomfortable. I have thought about working more in the evening when it is cooler.
The flute that Dan bought me is absolutely amazing. Unfortunately, I have forgotten most of what I learned so long ago. I remember the very basic things like fingering and blowing correctly for good tone. I played the flute for many years in school and totally loved it! Most people don't fine the flute as exciting as the piano or say a sax but a VERY good flute player could really change someone's mind about that.
I have met two other people so far locally online that currently play the flute. Both are willing to help me re-lean what I have forgotten for free. I'm really excited about being able to play again but I don't see the point of paying 40.00 a lesson. So I think I'm going to take them up on the free offer. It will be fun whether I become really good or not.
Dan's Dad and Stepmother sent me a wonderful gift also but there is a really funny story that goes along with it.
There is a local foot doctor here in Bremerton who has a TV ad they play at least a hundred times a day. The ad is for his services and also for the Kitsap Luxury Foot Spa. I always assumed from the ad that the spa was part of his foot practice and when people needed therapy or something he had this available in his office. So the day before my birthday there was a knock and door and here stood the foot doctor! I of course could not imagine why this man was at the door. He asked "Are you Pamela" and I of course replied "yes I am, you're that foot doctor from TV" he says "yes I am" ha-ha we both just stood there for a few seconds and finally he says "Well your Dad and "L" have given you a spa gift card for your Birthday" I say oh ok thank you. Then I said something like "you deliver?" he said "well actually my wife owns the spa and she asked me to deliver this for her" I said oh ok....
I was still thinking they were sending me to the foot doctor!!!! How strange!
Anyway I came inside and looked up the website (you can look at it here and I realized that is an actual spa and nothing really to do with the foot doctor! The two of them (the foot doctor and his wife who owns the spa) share the TV ad. So it appeared that they are one in the same when in fact they really aren't.
Anyway it was all pretty funny but the gift is a really nice gift! I mean who wouldn't want to spend a day at a nice spa!!!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Personal and Universal Deities

Understanding Personal and Universal Deities

As with most all belief systems, past and present, there is usually a god or Deity called upon for guidance and help. Some faiths, such as Christianity, refer to this person as “God.” In this context, God is viewed and worshiped in generally the same way by all who follow that faith. God is seen as a single entity existing outside of this world while ruling everyone and everything within the world. In Wicca this is not the case at all, simply because it is not possible for every individual to all relate to one Deity in the same way.

Personal Deity and Universal Deity are two aspects by which Pagans view Deity. Universal Deity is the sum of all things both seen and unseen. Universal Deity does not merely exist outside of this world but also includes all of which is inside the physical world and inside each of us. As humans, this is not an easy concept to grasp. Our minds, by nature, have limits. These limits are what make Universal Deity far more complicated and confusing. The true nature of Universal Deity is so vast it can often times be far beyond just hard to comprehend. In fact, for most it is closer to being completely impossible to comprehend.

Most Pagan paths involve creating a personal connection with Deity. For many, doing so through the Universal Deity aspect alone would be difficult to accomplish. Universal Deity has no single face or name so it does not allow one to form the personal relationship with deity that is desired. Additionally, it is not Pagan belief that Deity must be seen and interacted with exactly the same for all people. We cannot all drive the same car, wear the same clothes or all give our children the same name. Therefore, only the purpose of Deity is viewed as being the same. If we all are expected to see and interact with Deity the same way, it may exhibit only one face and one name. As humans, we are very diverse and individual -- not only in our beliefs but also in how we view things, our abilities to interact with other people, our understanding of our self and the world around us. It is simply impossible for everyone to relate to one named Deity or the nameless Universal Deity which has no has no true form. However, this does not mean there is no connection to Universal Deity.

It is necessary for most that we envision Deity as an entity. The chosen entity to which we may apply a face and name allows for a much more personal and emotional connection to the one true Universal Deity. The Patron Deity is one that we may connect with on a very personal level. Patron Deity can be different from person to person depending on the individual. The fact that we are all different, having different views, emotions, and experiences plays a role. It would be difficult for us to connect and relate in the same way. The Patron Deity is what gives us the ability to connect based on our own personal needs and what feels right. This makes it possible for us to achieve the emotional, deeply personal connection to Deity through our chosen entity.

Just as there is no one name and face for Deity, there is no right or wrong Deity. Each of us through our different experience and previous incarnation will be drawn to the Deity who is right for us in this incarnation. There is no right or wrong way to decide what Deity to work with. There is also no limit to the number of Deities we may choose to work with. In ritual we worship the God and Goddess. Many people choose or are chosen by one pair, while others may have more that one or even multiple pairs with whom they work and are comfortable. This is really as much of a personal choice as deciding what you would like to wear today.

Which Deity we relate to best can depend on many different factors. It is not uncommon to choose a deity with attributes or qualities that we wish to draw upon to better ourselves. Perhaps we have always felt a fascination for growing plants and love flowers. We, then, might find Flora, goddess of plant life, as the deity we best relate to. Or perhaps we will look to Caffeina who offers inspiration and creativity. I have named these two as examples because I personally feel an attachment to them. Our own Patron Deity may not always be who we decide on. We may find that we are drawn to a Deity through symbols, visions, dreams or thoughts of that particular Deity. It is also very possible for our Deity to change over time. We may find that at different stages of our lives different Deities call to us which, I believe can depend on the lessons we each have to learn in this life. As we move forward to the next life we may feel a strong relation to the same Deity or it may be a completely different one. Above all, our relationships with our Deities should be well respected. Work and interaction with the Deities should be a cherished friendship. If we find it feels more like we are speaking with a “friend-of-a-friend,” perhaps that isn’t the right Deity for us.

The uniqueness of this is that it allows everyone the ability to have that personal relationship. With your own personal Deity you will find it easy to form a relationship and interact not only through ritual but in you day to day life. This is very different than many other religions where “God” is seen as a single entity. This is not to say that everyone will feel that they need to have a Personal Deity. The most important thing for each individual is that they take the time and find what works best for them.

Just a thought

Well today is my birthday! It seems so odd to me how the older you get the less important a birthday can seem. I can’t ever remember actually waking up on my birthday and feeling any different than I did when I fell asleep. It seem sad that all the great b-day milestones are when you are young and really still unable to appreciate the value of a gift. 13th - b-day becoming a teenager, 16th birthday being legal to drive, 18th walking through that door to whole other dimension of your life and of course 21st b-day - becoming legal drinking age. Though how many people really enjoy this one? You would think something would be saved for those birthdays that continue to come once the pure joy of youth is gone? I mean really isn’t turning 21 a gift itself? It is when you consider turning 21 rather than 31, 41, 51 and so on that it seems like the gift of a lifetime. However, maybe having another birthday at all is the real gift no matter what the age.

Monday, July 25, 2005


So another episode of the 4400 and I simply can’t get enough. We had planned to watch a movie tonight before but time didn’t allow. So went outside gave the grass and plants a drink finished just in time for me to plant myself in front of the TV. I’m not sure just how this fits into the grand scheme but I love this episode. How people wish they could experience something like this? Real or not…that would be a true adventure!
The thing that I love is also the thing that bothers me most! I can’t tell who is good and who is bad. I suppose that is the plan. I mean I have my own ideas but they just aren’t giving me enough

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Treasure or Trash

You really do have to appreciate the value of a garage sale. My husband and I occasionally on Saturday get in the car and just cruise around. We normally take one address from the newspaper and program it into the GPS receiver. Then we head in that direction and hit all the sales we see along the way. It is something like a treasure hunt to us. Armed with 20.00 we scavenge the city looking for a deal. Not that we need anything but hey you never know. The thing that cracks me up is how people value their trash (lets just face the fact that if it really meant anything to them they wouldn’t be selling in the first place) so much that many times you might think you were at a Macy’s sidewalk sale! As if there was such a thing. It makes you wonder if they actually want to sell their trash or if they have nothing better to do on a sunny Saturday afternoon so they decide to move everything outside, slap a price on it and just watch the people come and go empty handed?

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

You are a Cypress Tree

You are strong, adaptable, and striving to be content.
You're good at taking what life has to give - even if you don't like it.
A passionate lover who can't be satisfied, you are quick tempered at times.
You hate loneliness, want love and affection, and need to be needed.
A bit of a live wire, you love to gain knowledge any cost... and you can be careless at times.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Why I don't watch previews

Does anyone even watch the previews on rental DVD’s? Well I don’t! Not normally that is. Until just this week I have always just skipped (when given the option) or at the least fast forwarded through them. For some reason unknown to me or mankind I decided to watch the previews on a rental movie. I was shockingly amazed when I realized that I just might want to see these movies which according to the preview were “available now on DVD”! There were two so I eagerly returned to Blockbuster with the mission of coming home with these movies.
When I was unable to find them in their mass display of new releases (I had no idea how old these movies were) I moved on to the “older” section. Still unable to locate even one of these I proceeded to interrupting a conversation between the two very young male clerks at the counter about keyboards in China having or not having Chinese characters! Yeah…I know! This was a discussion that was going on between to two clerks before we entered the store.
So after interrupting this very serious conversation I asked about these movies and he diligently typed in the info given. Only to inform me that they didn’t carry the first movie and they have one copy of the 2nd title available for re-sale. He then added that I was welcome to search their 7000 previously owned movies in search of the one I was looking for to then purchase it for 12.00! This is one of the reasons I don’t watch previews!

BTW the tiles were Mean Creek and Enduring Love
Any Reviews?

Monday, July 18, 2005

Who did this?

Is anyone else as caught up in this as me? Silly questions since there are message boards popping up all over the place about it. I swear all week long I count the hours until once again I can join the 4400! Sick...I know! I have been known to watch the x-Files occasionally. I never minded the old re-runs of Twilight Zone, Alfred Hitchcock or even Tales from the Crypt. Which btw when I think about now Tales from the Crypt was rather silly. I can’t say I’m a believer but when asked if I "believe" Hmm I simple say... “Well I certainly don’t disbelieve”. I originally stated watching the 4400 out of simple boredom. My husband was away and at the time I didn’t have much of anything going on. It was a simple matter of flipping through the channels and there happen to be a new TV series coming on. So I thought why not…I started watching. Now it seems I plan my Sundays around it.
I can’t really remember ever being so caught up in TV! Who did this to me?

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Bow and Robin Hood

I have many opinions that I have never put into words. This is one of them.
I worked for many years in an industry that encourage and aided the hunting of animals for sport. It was ironic that I would end up in an industry such as this for more than a few reasons. One being that my father died in a hunting accident when he was accidentally shot by another hunter. Regardless of that fact I found this industry to be exciting and even more intriguing. At first I didn’t think much about the actual killing of an animal. I was a marketing coordinator and so my job included trade shows, advertising and customer service. There was a lot to learn and I was oh so very eager. Such as… “Will twisting or un-twisting the bow string make the draw lighter?” and “Can you change a two cam bow to a one cam without changing the limbs?”
After several years of working in this industry and becoming more familiar with it I realize that this job brought a fair amount of enemies!
There were groups such as PETA that exists solely for the purpose of putting companies such as the one I worked for out of business. This would mean putting me out of a job.
I would just like to say that I personally am an animal lover and I think that PETA does a wonderful job as advocates for those (animals) who have no voice. In fact PETA has nothing to do with what I’m getting at here.
So what am I getting at? Well while I have no problem with PETA there is another small group of people who I have a big problem with! You might not be aware but there are people out there who consider “hunting” to be inhumane. Now since we live in American and considering the whole freedom of speak thing this isn’t a crime you say! I agree.
However, I just have one question for the small group of people who will rally against the hunters of America and then have dinner at the local steakhouse. Why is it ok to breed and slaughter animals for meat to be sold in the market or to be served in a steakhouse but it isn’t ok to go out and hunt and kill your dinner? Doesn’t an animal in the wild have a better chance of survival than the one breed and held in captive only to be slaughtered? How is this more humane?
Ok so that was three questions but you get my point.


Saturday, July 16, 2005

Makes you wonder

This seriously makes you wonder how hard it would be for the "real" bad guys to throw everyone off!! I guess the X-ray technicians weren't fans?

"When a suspicious package turned up Wednesday in the Buffalo-Niagara International Airport, authorities were forced to clear the main terminal.
After all that, though, the bag turned out to contain "Star Wars" toys and memorabilia.
The package was apparently left unattended by someone who departed the airport on a flight bound for Miami, said Brett O'Neill, a spokesman for the Transportation Security Administration.
The contents had already been cleared for explosives by bomb-sniffing dogs, but X-ray technicians couldn't identify its contents.
"It was some questionable image in the package, so, at that point in time, it was decided to evacuate the terminal, because we just couldn't make out exactly what it was," O'Neill said.
Some 3,500 people were evacuated and the incident delayed the departure of a dozen flights."

Friday, July 15, 2005

Who would have thought...

If I told you that one very small but noisy amphibian could cause serious damage to Hawaii's economy by dragging down housing prices you might tell me that I am crazy! Well...guess again. Who would have thought that this small little frog could be so annoying that people would decide not to live in an area simply because the frogs are so loud! 70 to 80 decibels - about the loudness of a vacuum cleaner to be exact.
I say put these guys to work. I know in my own neighborhood there are more than a few people I would gladly trade the company of in exchange for the obnoxious mating call of the Coqui Frog. This isn't to say I'm not happy where I live but...come on... be honesty we can't all love everyone. Perhaps these little creatures could be the weapon of the future.
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Thursday, July 14, 2005


This picture was taken just outside my home on the backyard fence. I made it small for this post but if you click on the image you can see amazing detail.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Alone (EAP)

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then–in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life–was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.