Sunday, December 31, 2006

The Hollow Tree

You are walking down a path through the forest. Your guardian spirit walks beside you. You feel safe and loved. Ferns and hostas dot the edges amongst rough hewn stones and lichen covered fallen branches. The moon peeks through the overgrowth of the moss strewn trees, the stars wink mischievously amidst the few gaps in the cloudy sky. The air is moist and the wind starts to pick up. The rain is gentle at first but quickly turns torrential as you spy a large hollow in a immense oak tree before you. Stepping inside you find yourself at the beginning of a tunnel. In the distance you see luminous yellow eyes glowing. You and your guardian spirit begin to bristle up as in your head you hear the words, "Do not be afraid, I am here to guide you.", as a silver gray wolf steps from the shadows.

As you follow the wolf into the tunnel your eyes begin to adjust to the darkness and you notice there are scenes carved into the walls. You see yourself in your mothers arms safe and secure as she rocks to and fro. You see yourself playing in the yard, jumping rope, playing freeze tag, and hide and seek. There are many happy memories depicted on the walls around you. You see the first time you fell off of your bicycle and scraped your elbow, the first time you were punished, your first heartbreak. The wall of memories send your emotions whirling, chaotically. Your guardian spirit snuggles up closer to comfort you.Suddenly you arrive in a vast room. There are three women at different stages of their lives and a man in his prime, sitting inside a circle. At the center of the circle is a large raging bonfire. The wolf stops at the entrance, "I will be here when your journey is complete." Your guardian spirit waits with the wolf at the tunnels edge.As you step forward the youngest of the three women steps forward to greet you. Looking into her eyes you see yourself as you once were, innocent, open, a child. Her heart is filled with wonder and hope. She hugs you tightly and you remember all that once was. She tells you that it is okay, you are safe, your past is just that, the past. As she relinquishes her hold you feel release inside as well. She smiles and your heart brims with wonder and hope.She who steps forward next is you as you are now. There is desperation and concern in her face. As she holds you to her bosom you see the obstacles that currently stand in your path and the repeated mistakes. As she steps back and smilesyou understand that the answers for yourself are inside yourself. You must make internal changes in order for there to be external changes. You feel the burden lifted from your shoulders and capable to achieve your goals.The future you steps forward and gently smiles as she embraces you. You see many possibilities stand before you. The road while not easy, is paved with great rewards if you choose to take it. There will be many distractions and pitfalls as well. There is an easier road apparent but it holds only emptiness. Knowing that all things are possible, no dream unreachable, you feel ready to meet life head on as you are released.The man steps forward and smiles as he too embraces you. You see that there are both masculine and feminine aspects to yourself that you had not acknowledged before.

You hear his words in your head, "The wisdom and strengths are with you already. They are yours to draw from and will aid you in all of your endeavors." As he takes his place back at the circle you feel power and wisdom envelope you.You realize that you are not outside the circle but at the center of it where before there was a raging fire.

You now know that each aspect of yourself has always been within you. They have born witness to all that you have been and all that you have done. You understand that by looking within you will find the strength, wisdom, and support that you need to learn, grow, and live. You feel centered, and in touch with yourself. All the stored negative energies and traits are gone. All the stored pain and resentment also are gone. You are filled with love and light. By releasing the past you can now live in the moment and can now plan for the future with clarity and wisdom.You have emptied yourself of all your negative ideas and thoughts and have also rid yourself of those preconceived notions about things and some of the ideas that were conditioned in you as a child. Now you can start all over again.Turning back to the tunnel you see your guardian spirit and your guide await you. You take a quick glance back and see the reflection of the old you with all her fears and sorrows dissipate into a brilliant white light that fills the room and floods your heart with hope and joy.

The light spills into the tunnel and lights your way as you, the spirit wolf, and your guardian spirit journey back to the opening of the grand oak tree. Along the way you see where once your memories had been depicted on the walls, now there pictures of your ancestors. You know that just as the two spirits are with you now, the spirits of your ancestors too will always be with you.Stepping from the majestic oak you find that you are home once again, awake, renewed, and secure within yourself.

Friday, November 24, 2006


I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Ours was pretty nice. We spent the day cooking and hanging out. No big deal but it was nice to have Dan home and just do nothing. We had a feast and talked to all our family on the phone. David made it to CT and is getting settled in there. I am sure he is happy that boot camp is over!

I haven't posted anything because last week I got a new laptop and I have been moving everything over to the new one. Today we finally finished cleaning my old one up and put in the mail to someone who is very much in need of a new computer! He has no idea we are sending it so he should have a big suprise once it arrives. I can't wait!

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Not many

I spent a little time today reading several blogs that I haven't visited in a while and found this on Autumn's Blog.

While there are no people who have my exact name here is a little information provided about my first name only!

There are 623,935 people in the U.S. with the first name Pamela.
Statistically the 77th most popular first name.
More than 99.9 percent of people with the first name Pamela are female. Huh?
LogoThere are:
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

Friday, November 17, 2006

a little news

Wow ok so today Dan's younger brother graduated from boot camp! Honestly, the last person I ever expected to join the military. None the less amazing! He is doing really well so far and I am very happy for him.

The rain has finally decided to take a break around here! I thought I was being shot the other day when I had to go out to the post office and send out some mail. I don't think it had ever rained like that since we moved here. I mean come on this is Washington so rain is a given but...that was more like a good old South Florida rainstorm than a laid back Northwest mist. I am glad to say that the new roof and skylights are working very nicely. We have waited a while to have a good bit of rain for the final test but I would have to say after the last week or two it is official that all is good.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

when pianos try to be guitars

Have you every really thought about all the time we spend in life trying to be what we aren't? Chances are when we do this we think we are doing it for our self. The truth is we do this for others. We do this more often than we think we do and even when we don't realize it. It is time spent wasted no matter how we try to rationalize it.

I know this is very random even for me. Think about it...I mean really think about it.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

we made it...

Our trip was wonderful! It started off slow with a delay at the airport but no shock there. Once we arrived in San Diego we rented a car and were headed for
Santa Monica! We ended up slightly lost on the way. However, Dan did really well considering he hasn't driven that in quite some time. We arrived to warm, dry weather! Overall the weather was great for the whole trip. We shopped on Third Street, went to a surprise birthday party, and I have to say we had the most amazing time when we spent a alone day at
Magic Mountain.

Dan was also able to enjoy some of his favorite unhealthy food from home! Any native of California will without doubt have eaten here! I have to admit that personally am not that fond of it but my husband is like a child on Christmas morning when it comes to this. Really the big thing is their very on "special sauce" which is the part I don't like.

We went to UCLA to have lunch with his Dad and had a wonderful time. We were forced to sneak around a bit due to the fact that his step-mother had no idea we were in town until we showed up at her surprise birthday party. Trust me it was a surprise....especially seeing us there.

We ended up driving back to San Diego a day early and staying in a hotel there. I am so glad we did because it just so happen that I was able to do a tour of the boat (sub) that my husband is currently working on! It is VERY different from the last one he was on so it was pretty cool to actually see it.

The last day we returned the rental car and took their shuttle to the airport. Dan hung out there with me for a while and then once it was time to go he got a ride back to work and I was on a plane bound for home. It was so strange to come home to an empty house with out my dog-boys. I was up early the next morning to pick them up from the vet where they were boarded. I missed them so much and they were so happy to see me!

So I have spent the last few days just trying to get caught up on emails. I came home to about 800 total. However, most of these ended up being junk mail! Sorting through it all is work I tell you. Hopefully I didn't end up deleting anything important but if I did I am sure I'll hear about it. My only regret is that we didn't really take any pictures. We were so busy the whole time running around we just didn't take any.

We did a ton of shopping and a good part of it was done at Gap buying product (red) stuff! Including an awesome limited addition book that is available. I encourage anyone and everyone to take part on this cause! If you haven't heard about it click the link to learn more. This holiday season is the perfect time! I'll post more on this later but please check it out!

And last but not least we spent some time here star stalking! I think this is actually my favorite place.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Return of...

Well once again I have allowed this blog to fall to the side. So where have I been? Good Questions! I wish I could say that the last month has been action packed but that isn't really the case. It has been work packed though. I have been spending time working on my business and my husband's schedule has been simply put INSANE! I can't go into all that right now but it has been a rollercoaster. Summer is a really had time around these part because you really do want to spend as much time outside of the house as possible. The weather doesn't allow much time outside in the winter so I try to pack it all into the summer. Now that we are getting back into the rainy season I have time for everything indoors! I have a lot of catching up to do on the blogs that I enjoy reading and this is the perfect time for that.

In a sort of a last ditch effort to slip a vacation in we are leaving on Nov. 1 to spend a week in Santa Monica with Dan's family. We will return on the 8th...well I will at least. He has some work to do in CA (which is what prompted this whole trip) and so he won't be home for a little while longer.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Harder than I thought!

I accepted a challenge that Penguin posted because it seemed fun and even more so it sounded like an interesting way to express how I feel about myself. I didn't realize just what a challenge it was going to be!

It sounded simple enough...Go here and look through random quotes until you find 5 that you think reflect who you are or what you believe. I actually found about 100 but had to narrow it down to 5 so here they are: (unless I amend this later)

There is no such thing as a 'self-made' man. We are made up of thousands of others. Everyone who has ever done a kind deed for us, or spoken one word of encouragement to us, has entered into the make-up of our character and of our thoughts, as well as our success.
George Matthew Adams

Have the courage to be ignorant of a great number of things, in order to avoid the calamity of being ignorant of everything.
Sydney Smith(1771 - 1845)

Say what men may, it is doctrine that moves the world. He who takes no position will not sway the human intellect.
William Thayer Shedd

He is ill clothed that is bare of virtue.
Benjamin Franklin (1706 - 1790)

Rudeness is the weak man's imitation of strength.
Eric Hoffer (1902 - 1983

I encourage anyone who reads this to also accept this challenge...while I did have a hard time...I must say it was fun and interesting!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

So much...

This little guy had a rough weekend and ended up going to the emergency vet office Sunday night. He is having an issue with his prostate (of all things)! We returned home Sunday afternoon after going out for a while in search of a kitchen cart (what a chore) and returned home to blood all over the place. We first thought the dog-boys had been in a fight or something! So we checked them all and they were all fine so we actually started to think that someone had broken into the house and that the alarm had failed to work. Once we had check all over to make sure there wasn't a wounded intruder hiding Dan took all three boys outside and when Bentley went to pee it was straight blood! We called the emergency vet and Dan took him in right away. It was a few hours and $143.00 dollars later that we learned it is his prostate. He is on a antibiotic for the next ten days and then will follow up with our regular vet office. Prays and positive energy would be greatly appreciated!

It seems like I have so much going on right now! First of all we never did make it to Gig Harbor. Dan ended up having to go in for a briefing Saturday morning and so that day was pretty much shot. Then on Sunday we became really involved in cleaning and yard work. I suppose that was actually a good thing because we ended up weeding, laying weed barrier and mulching the rose garden in the back yard.

We also spoke with the new owner of the house next door. The same one who tore our retaining wall down last April while Dan was deployed and then made a half ass attempt to rebuild it. He has rented out the house next door was there fixing the front porch because it seems the people renting were complaing about it. Anyway, after everything they didn't (tearing down our wall, killing my plants, and stealing my tree) it seems he has run out of money now! What does that mean? That means everything he put me through was for nothing! He doesn't have the money to continue with the building of the 6 new homes beside us so he is planning the sell everything. The empty lot that he cleared and cut down ALL the trees to make room for more homes and the house next door that he only bought to be able to widen the sewage line to service the new homes. Karma can be a funny (or not so funny) thing.

I would also like to point out that The Pagan Sojourn has something very intresting going on right now and everyone should check it out!

The photo used in this post was taken by my dear friend Raul and more of his amazing photograpy can be seen here.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Looking Forward

I am so happy that the weekend is here. Since Dan doesn't have duty this weekend we might actually be able to attend this Faire in Gig Harbor. His crazy work along with everything else going on has kept us home for a while now. My husband though he may seem a bit creepy here is really a wonderful guy. He came home with roses this week for no reason at all. That might not seem like such a big deal but to me it is.
In just a little over a week his bother is coming to visit us here in Washington. I am really happy that they are going to see each other before David leaves for boot camp. He just recently join the Navy (following in the footsteps of his older brother) and will be leaving before long. Before he arrives we do have a few more small things to finish up around here because I know our minds won't be on work during his visit.

I have updated the Divintaion page and started a list of all forms. This idea came from not being able to find one place with a complete and comprehensive list of all forms. I still have a long way to go but this is a start.

Autumn has posted a great article on her site that is really worth reading.
The title is Journeying With Persephone
By: Natalie Harter, Acquisitions Specialist: Witchcraft, Paganism, Magick

Thursday, August 10, 2006

I'm back...

I am ashamed of the fact that I have seriously neglected this blog over the last several months. However, it was all for the greater good. As of yesterday the work on our home was finally completed. It is unfortunate that some things were put aside while the work was in progress but we are so happy with the end result. Now our normal daily life can resume and we can sit back and relax...for today. I'm sharing a before and after photo and as you can (hopefully see) drastic changes have taken place. We knew when we bought the house a little over a year ago that there was work involved but we also felt that doing that work would make the home feel special and our own. So here it is..1 new roof, 5 new skylights, all new gutters, 1 new storm door, 1 new garage door, 1 new red front door and freshly painted trim!! This is just on the outside. We have also replaced the kitchen floor and yes we did it with out hiring someone to come and do it for it us.

Now with that all behind us I will continue with all the many project that were in the works when this began.

The first photo is the "before" the next is the "after" the last two are of the new floor we installed. Click on the image to enlarge it.

Blessed Be

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Happy Mother's Day

We did the long distance thing again this year. Dan's brother was kind enough to pick up and deliver the flowers we ordered over the phone. He hand delivered to both CA Mom's and they both loved the flowers and sent pictures. I hope everyone else out there has a wonderful Mother's Day!

Saturday, May 13, 2006

The Wall

Dan is home again and I am so glad! He should be staying for a little while this time but as always who knows? He is off for the next few days so we plan on just hanging out and enjoying the weather. Hopefully we can play around in the yard. That is play around with the yard! The grass was getting pretty out of hand so I was very happy to find out he is coming home and can work that out. We still have some weird seed/weed growing out there. Dan thought it might be the grass trying to seed but then someone else told me it was just a weed. Maybe our grass is the weed! Other wise the lawn is look great and nothing like it did a year ago when we first got here. This picture also shows the the almost new wall! We still haven't decided exactly what we want to do with it.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Things that live in the trees...

We have this great new friend in the who had taken up residency in the backyard! I think it is adorable eating out of the birdfeeder! After several days of getting closer and closer it finally let me get close enough to take a great picture. However, my Jack Russell and the "rat" are not happy with the fact with this little guy in living in the back! Baby Dog (Amos) on the other hand could really care less about what lives in the backyard as long at it stays in the trees and away from him!

Saturday, May 06, 2006


Bowling...I haven't been bowling in over more than a year. I just realized that today. We use to go on the base all the time before we moved here. We always had a good time even though I wasn't never a great at it. Since we moved it just hasn't been high on our list. Anyway, the FSG had a ladies night tonight and everyone went bowling and then to dinner. We had a great time and even though I couldn't bowl I really did enjoy it! I think the next outing is going to be kid friendly and something like mini golf! That should be interesting and fun.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Falling, Falling, Falling

Today wasn't the first time and I'm sure it won't be the last but I have once again tripped and fallen down the stairs in our house. Thankfully it isn't a full staircase or chances are I would be in the hospital right now. I actually only hurt my ankle so I am thankful for that. Many more of these falls and I am likely to have some brain damage!

Monday, May 01, 2006


Well so much has gone on in the past month I haven't a chance to blog anything! We are all doing good and the time is flying by. I can't believe it is actual Spring again! The winter did seem long until now that is. Now the weather is starting to be decent again the winter seems to have been long ago. We are actually having some sunny days!
I am also more involved with the FSG so that does take up some of the free time I use to have. Dan has been coming and going more recently so it has been nice to have things going on.
Now that everything has settled down a bit I'd like to give more attention to the blog. I have a bunch of things to post here but it is going to take a little time to get caught up on everything.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

April Fool

This is my silly husband! We thought it would be kind of funny to play a little phone trick on his mother and this was the end result. While she thought she was getting a picture of something very different...this is what she actually got!!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006


Well today was the patiently awaited eye exam. They offer something I hadn't heard of before that is optional, for a small fee of course so I opted to do it. It was really pretty cool and (the part I like most) painless. Everything was fine with the exam and the doc was nice enough to email the scans to me! I left with updated prescriptions and the satisfaction of knowing I am not going blind! Shown below is the amazing Left Eye. I didn't see the point of posting both since they pretty much look the same!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

The run-around

D is on leave for the next three days and we need to spend this time getting things done before he has to leave again. Today was a crazy day to say the least...we spent the whole day driving around from place to place taking care of things. We did get most everything done but tomorrow I have an eye appointment and then we need to work on the taxes for the business! D has been looking into it but we have an appointment to answer any questions he might have before actually filing it just to make sure everything is correct!

Monday, March 06, 2006

Getting there!

Well we did go shooting today and had a wonderful time! A friend of D's from work came along who hadn't been to the indoor range where we go and I think he liked it. I'm was having trouble shooting at first. I thing I wasn't holding it right and it was hurting my hand but then after a little adjustment it was much better. I have improved drastically since the first time we went and feel more confident that in needed I could certainly defend myself. Hopefully we will be able to go again at least once before D leaves. After we all finished shooting we were very hungry so went to have dinner before driving all the way back home! We ended up getting a free desert out of the deal which was pretty cool!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Get over it!

Getting over the shock of the plant being sold we moved on to the front yard and what we can do there. The weather is starting to warm up and winter is waving goodbye for now so we decided to clean out the front yard and put down new mulch! We have seen people all over the place working in their yards getting a jump on the outdoor spring cleaning and thought it would be fun to join in. We have much less to do this year than last year when we moved in and it is still hard to believe we have been here in this house for almost a year! We spent most of today clearing away the old mulch and making several trips to buy more when we kept running out before we were done. This year we went with the RED and it looks fantastic!! We are so pleased with out work!
I'm excited because tomorrow we are going shooting again! More practice for me and the Lady!!!

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Stuck with the fake!

We got up early today and went plant shopping again we visited a tropical plant store in Poulsbo and then even went to a local nursery just to have a look. Nothing. So we decided to go back and buy the plant we liked the most the night before! There was one small problem when we got to the store where the plant had been SOLD! Yes some other person had seen a good thing and not wasted anytime buying it. Unlike us we thought for sure there was something better out there so went looking but never found it and when we returned for the plant it was gone. So the lesson here is don't waste you time looking for something better when you have already found something good! Otherwise like us you could end up with nothing! So for now we still have our old fake plant!

Friday, March 03, 2006

How Fake...

Today we were just talking and for some reason the conversation ended up being about a fake plant we have in our living room and we decided that it would be much nicer to have a real plant there. So at that moment we decided to set out to find something suitable for that area. We had only two had to be ALIVE and we wanted it to be at least of equal size to the fake thing we have there now. Oh make that three conditions....because we wanted something that would continue to grow. We have a very tall ceiling so it would have room and skylights so it would get enough light to do well in that space. Little did we know what a challenge it was going to be. We went several place and while I admit they weren't best places to look for tropical plants they were the only ones open at the time and out of three you would think we would find something right? Well we did find one and it was at the 2nd place we looked...we liked it (a peace lily) but we thought for sure there was something better out there. So we went to on more place just to have a look (which had NOTHING) and by the time we were done the store that did have a plant for us was closed. So we plan to go back to tomorrow (after looking at a few other places) and buying the one we liked!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Indecision & Gifts

First thing this morning we had someone come to look at the gutters and give an estimate on replacing them all! He was kind enough to leave a color option chart with me. I had lots of running around to day today so after the bank, post office and Blockbuster I went to Lowe's to pick up some exterior paint samples and get some ideas for color schemes. Little did I know what a hard decision this is going to be! I took a ton of samples and brought them all home laid then all out and all I can say is WOW! I like so many it is going to be impossible to pick! I thought the roof was hard to decide on but this is just crazy.
The good news is that later in the day we had another company come to look at the gutters and he was about to fix the major problem one right there on the spot! It 50.00 and the gutter is he used is green but is isn't a big deal being on the side of the house and hopefully soon they will all be replaced anyway.
When the mail came there was a package from my brother-in-law with a new speed loader for the LS! He bought it but it didn't work with the grip he uses so he send it on to me! I tried it out and it is a little hard to use at first but I think the more I use it the easier it will be. Very cool of him send it to me.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

The Next Big Adventure

D has decided that we need to do some improvements around here. Mainly, the roof and gutters. So he has started calling people to come out and do estimates on the work. That isn't all we need to do but those things are at the top of the list. We feels that because the gutters are not working properly there is some wall damage on one of the exterior walls of the house. The plan is to fix the gutters and roof first then tear that wall out and see what is really going on in there. We would also like to paint the exterior of the house however that happens to fall in line after the roof, guttersand wall. We had a few people come already for the roof and the estimates range for the 5,000 to 8,000. I think the hardest part is picking the color. We saw a wonderful BLUE roof that would be great but worry how that might impact selling the house. I can't imagine everyone would enjoy having a blue roof. So I think we both agreed on something called Antique Slate for the roof. While the roof is being done we plan on replacing all five skylights with new ones. It is best to do them with the roof rather than have to pay someone to install them later on after the roof is done. That still leaves the gutter color and the exterior paint colors to be decided. Once I decided on the colors and he agrees I am going to started calling around to get estimates on painting the exterior of the house. The idea is to have all these things happen around the same time. No big deal right? This should be an adventure!

Monday, February 27, 2006


Today was spent in the yard again. I spent most of the day planting over 100 things. I am not sure if they are going to actually grow but I thought I would give it a try since the goal this year is to have everything from seeds. It seems like the rain is less and less but it is still really cold. During the day I notice it is a bit warmer than has been over the last few months but not much. The boys really enjoy the no the rain though...they can actually go out in the backyard and hang out for a while. It is also nice not to have all the mud inside. It is impossible around here to keep the floors clean but I am coming to terms with that I suppose.
Having D home is really nice. We have finally settled back in and everything seems normal again. Well for a little while at least. We have several more years of this so who know how it is really going to be

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Out with the old in with the New

The pond is officially working again! The gardens are cleaned out and we decided on wildflowers. We bought several boxes of wildflower seeds and through them all over the place. Now if the grow or not is yet to be seen! We noticed this morning that the house next door is for sale. We had no idea they were planning to sell but then we don't really talk that much. Everyone is this area just sort keeps to themselves and so it was really kind of a shock to see the for sale sing this morning. D went over and talked to them just see why they were selling and it seems they have a bid on a larger piece of property and so they are selling. We are VERY excited to see if they get what they are asking. Of course we hope they do because that would be good news for us. We have owned our house for less than a year and the value has already gone way up!
It will be interesting to see who we get for neighbors when they sell. While I would like having someone more social it could also end up being some asshole that moves in. While as it is now people around here aren't very social at all they at least are pretty cool. We don't really have any problems at all on our cul-de-sac and would like to keep it that way!

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Spring is here

We spent today outside for first time in months. It so nice being outside even if was a little cold. It was warmer than it has been in a very long time. We cleared out the whole big garden in front for replanting. It didn't take that long really but we haven't worked in the yard like for a while and we were both really tired by the time we had cleared away all that old mulch. We did have fun doing it though. After that we just took it easy....I made dinner and we watched a movie. We aren't sure what we want to do outside this year. Last year we moved here late in the year and so we bought a lot of potted plants and planted them. I did grow some of our garden from seeds but most we just bought. I think it would be fun this year to grow everything from seed/bulb. I lots of sunflower seeds and African daisy which we both love!
Tomorrow we are going back out to clean out the pond and getting up and running again. We miss the fountain and we also want to clear out that garden area and then decide just what we want to do out there.

Friday, February 24, 2006

I shot the Lady

We woke up pretty late today and decided to eat, shower and take off for the range. It is pretty far from home so we wanted to get there before it got to busy and we couldn't get in. We made the drive and after trying to fine a place to park we were relieved that they had two lanes available for us. We paid and set up and were ready to go. I had D shoot it first so I could see just what I was in for. We are not really familiar with revolvers and I had a pretty good idea it was going to be different than shooting the Glocks we own. So he shot it first and ended up with a little nick on right hand. It jumped a little and his had hit the barrel release thing. It wasn't a big deal. I didn't have that problem because of being left handed we hold it differently. It was very hard for me to shoot at first. I had 125g and 130g both were giving me hell. D ended up buying a few other things from the range and we tried those out but in the end I decided to stick with the 130's. I was a little discouraged when I started because while I was hitting the target at 15 feet I was all over the place. I am happy to say that after almost 100 rounds and one nice fat blister things were improving. After getting over some the excitement and getting a feel for it in my hands I started to improve...enough to defend myself for sure. I am hoping we can go back next weekend to the indoor but if not at least to the local outdoor range. I need just a little more practice and I will master it!

Thursday, February 23, 2006

It was about time...

After all the confusion with trying to buy the LS we decided that it might be better to just shop elsewhere. We knew there was going to be some travel involved because there is really only one place locally to shop and well we had already dealt with them enough. So yesterday D got home from work pretty early and called around a while yesterday and finally found a place about 40 miles away that had what I wanted. He called the right people to verify that there wouldn't be a problem with me just buying it in my name so soon after all the confusion with him buying it. We got the ok and set out for a short road trip. It took a little while to find the place. We called them a few times for better directions but they weren't much help in that department. Finally after driving around for a while we were able to find it. The whole took about 30 minutes and the longest part was filling out the paperwork. I felt certain that it would be delayed but the dealer made the call and it was a PROCEED! Much to my joy we were able to actually walk out the door with the LS this time. This proves that where you buy is just as important as what you buy. So after all the BS with the other place I finally had my Lady Smith!
This afternoon we went out and found the correct holster. We weren't sure if this was going to be an easy task considering I'm left handed. It ended up we found it rather easily and now I am all set! D is home tomorrow so we plan to go to an indoor range and try it out for the first time!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

No Lady

D made it home safely yesterday and of course at the top of our list of things to do was to go pick up the Lady! I patiently waited at home for him to finish up at work and come to pick me up so we could head out to get it. He wanted to change and spent a little while with the boys then we were on our way. I had no idea of the disappointment that would follow. We arrived knowing it would be to late to hit the range by the time we were done in the store but having ever intention of being able to go tomorrow as soon as D was done with work.
Unfortunately due to incompetent help at the Sportsman's Warehouse we would not be leaving with the Lady! They had not properly provided the information that is required for the background check on our original visit with which had prompted a result of delayed. When we spoke with them yesterday we discovered that we had been lied to by an employee and that while we could legally leave with the Lady Smith a Proceed reply had not yet come back from NICS. Being the responsible people that we are we decided that it would not be wise to actual take the Lady Smith even though legally we were able to. Now what? I'm not sure...they (the store) really seem to not have a clue what they are doing and can't really give and good solid answers. Maybe it is time to shop some where else?

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

The right thing to do

I didn't actually see the sentencing but when I turned on the TV this morning they were talking about the decision that the judge made about sentencing Cody Posey as a juvenile. I believe that with so many people supporting Cody from his own community, jurors and the general public the judge really had no choice. I'm not sure if he made this decision because he feels it is right or because he will soon be up for re-election however, I agree with it and think it was the right thing to do. This boy isn't a career criminal and he deserve the opportunity to get the help he needs to be productive in society. I know so many people disagree with this. As for me I am pleased.
There are repeat offenders of unspeakable crimes who do less than 7 years and so to send a child to prison for the rest of his life....that seems like a crime. There is a difference between people who kill at random or for personal gain and people who kill to save their own life. Cody made some bad choices...but who hasn't? We all have things( probably not murder) big or small that we can look back on in our minds and know that we could have handle those thing differently if not better had we thought them through. However, the difference is chances are the things we think about took place in our adult life not when we were children

Sunday, February 19, 2006

The Best Part

The best part of today was the phone call I received. D is going to be home soon and best of all to stay for a little while. At least more than a few just a few days. It will be nice to live our somewhat normal life again as we know it. I am really excited for him to be home just for the fact he will be here with us. I am also excited because as soon as he arrives we will be able to pick up the Lady Smith. Of course he won't be able to actually hand it over to me until we legally transfer it into my name but that shouldn't take long and in the meantime I will still be able to shoot it at the range. I have been reading stuff online about thw LS and apparently people who own them (primarily females) really love it!

Last night I went to church with Tonya. It was....different. A different experience but everyone was really nice. I was a little confused about some of the things that actually went on but it was interesting and I did enjoy going. I'm not sure I will be going back anytime soon. Her family spends a lot of time going there. They go like three times a week or more. I'm not sure how people find that kind of time but it is their faith and I do respect that.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

My Saturday

I had a good time today. Went over to Tonya's house and watched a few movies. We had a hard time deciding what to watch but once we did it was pretty cool. She invited me to go to church with her tomorrow and at first I was pretty reluctant. I mean I have some vague memory of going to church as a child and well it wasn't something I was ever able to really find interest in. I really have no idea what to expect but did agree to go to the evening service. I mean after all if can't be that bad right? I just prefer to keep it from turning into a battle of beliefs. I do think everyone has the right to their own beliefs and the right to openly express what those beliefs are however, I do not agree with shoving it down the throat of everyone in sight.

Friday, February 17, 2006


I spent most of the day trying to clean up my laptop. It seems that some lovely little program decided to make home there. It wasn't the easiest thing to get rid of but I do think I was able to safely remove it and everything seems to still be working correctly. It took several hours out of my day.
Our weather has remained cold but dry...I am really happy about this. I was really started think the rain would never end. While I am told that is isn't gone for good it has been nice to have a break.
Tonight I spent a long time on the phone with a new friend and we had a nice conversation. It is always fun to meet new people and get to know them. I don't get to do that often so I was excited when she invited me over to her house tomorrow afternoon to just hang out. It is nice to have someone around to talk to with D being gone. We just haven't done this in such a long time and I seem to be having a much harder time with it all now than I have in the past. I suppose I was easily spoiled having him home for so long.
I haven't heard for him for days now via email. He isn't a big email writer anyway but I have tried to explain to him in the past how nice it is to get email while he is away. I don't think he really gets it. Anyway, hopefully he will home soon and I won't have to think about that for a while.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

It is all about the watchdog

Today was bath day for all the boys. That was some adventure. Of course when it was over they were all clean, soft and cozy! I am not sure they enjoyed me giving the bath since this something that D normally does. But for the most part they were all really good. Bentley was the worse but he was fine once I actually caught his little butt. He tried his little escape artist thing and went under the futon but the scent of milk bone was more than he could handle and he soon surrendered peacefully.
Amos was a little hard to actually get in to bathroom...I can't carry him around so I lured him in with a milk bone and then just had to lift him into the tub. After that it was pretty easy. Winnie of course is to small to fight back if wanted so he went peacefully.

This afternoon there was an extremely strange man wandering around in my front yard. He came up to the porch but never knocked or rang the doorbell. How freaking creepy is that?? The only reason I knew he was out there was because of the dog boys. There were going crazy...he didn't even seem to notice just kept looking around at the house. I went to get my shoes so I could go out and ask him what the hell he was doing and by the time I got back to the front he was getting in his truck and driving away. WTF?? It was some kind of food deliver truck so I suppose there is a chance was just lost. Needless to say I am little freaked out tonight!! Good thing I have these watchdogs! :)

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Who will be my Valentine?

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Valentine's Day!! The highlight of my day was a short email from D! It is kind of strange to be married and yet completely alone on Valentine's Day. Not how little girls dream about this day will be when they are all grown up! Because of my Lady Smith gift...I went yesterday apply for a CCP I was pretty excited to get the permit even though I don't have the gift yet. I went there yesterday morning to give then the application for the permit. I filled out the papers there showed my DL and dependant ID card. When I got there I asked how long it would take to get it back and she told me normally it take about 7 days. She did the fingerprints and all that and then asked me If I would like to just wait and she could just do the background check right then and if there was no problem she would give it to me right away and I could just leave with it. So I said sure and it took her about twenty minutes to type everything up and run me through the databases for the check. When it was done she printed and laminated it for me. Pretty I just have to wait for D to get home and then we can go pick up the Lady, transfer it into my name and head to the range.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Current News

I have to say I am just shocked about the thing with the vice president. So many conflicting stories to me seems a little fishy. I of course believe that it was an accident however, I wonder if it had been anyone else would there only be a $7 fine for not having the proper permit to hunt? Then the fact that they said no alcohol was involved and then later said he did have one drink with lunch. One drink is not "no alcohol"!! Again I don't believe that he meant to shoot his friend but I do think the whole thing was handled very poorly.

As for the guy who they think killed his wife and infant daughter...I see Scott Peterson all over again. So many things about this are similar to that and this is just getting started. I think everyone should have learned a lesson from Scott...I didn't feel they really had enough evidence to find him guilty but I do believe he killed his wife.

Here is a link to the personal website for this "once" happy family.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Search for the IPOD...because he loves me?

We finally got the Ipod working correctly and we were so amazed by the sound quality! I really liked the small one the Shuffle and sometime between last night and this morning D decided he was going to buy it for me. Perhaps because my other gift is on hold? Anyway, before coming home he went the Bangor NEX to see if they had any and they didn't have any Ipod at all. We later found out that they had them but weren't putting them out until Wednesday when were "going on sale" which the sale price ended up being more than the current price...that makes no sense but whatever. So he went back to Best Buy to work out something with a discount on the one he already had and while he was there he in fact bought the Shuffle...which was exactly what I wanted!
I was making his brunch when he got home and it was kind of funny because I didn't even realized that he had it with him right then. The package is so small and easy to miss. He started pulling receipts out of the bag and say oh yeah the one you want is right there!
I was really excited and couldn't wait to plug it in and get that thing going. He hung out with me while I uploaded one song just to hear how this even smaller one sounded. HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT! At least we noticed right away that there was a huge difference from his 60GB and this 4GB Shuffle...something small I might have been able to live with but not this. I suppose we were spoiled after hearing the other one and then this one. If I had not heard the other this one might have sounded great but I had heard the other and this was not even close.
I was kind of upset with myself because he bought exactly what I asked for and now I was disappointed.
Being the wonderful husband that he is...he immediately said "no problem lets go get you the 30GB" which is just like his but 30GB rather than 60GB.
So we were off to Best Buy again...there was quite a bit of confusion and we ended up buying and then returning it before we even left the store. The confusion was on the store end and something that the store manager had told D and it ended up being incorrect information. So we left the and headed to the Bremerton NEX...on the way we called and verify that had the right item and D asked them to hold it until we got there. This is where we found about them going on sale in few days. The sales lady there explained that she had put hers out early because they were going to cost more after Wednesday when they went on sale. She said she didn't see the point in waiting to put them out since the price was going to be higher. So the adventure in the search for the Ipod ended there. We bought came home and I loaded it up...we laughed in the car on the way home joking about who awful it would if this one also had poor sound quality. Thankfully it doesn' sounds just as wonderful as the 60GB!!! So great that I took it to bed that night...and of course was made fun of.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Our Early Valentine

We had the most amazing day and a VERY interesting ferry ride home from Seattle. D came home very early today and we went over to his co-workers house so that he could do some things to their computers. I met his friend for works wife and we talked while they played with the computers. She was very cool and hopefully we will all hang out more. They also moved here from Saint Marys where the guys were on the same boat together. They are still pretty new to the area so we were all talking about Seattle when D suggested that he and I take the ferry over and have dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. We sort of started celebrating Valentine's days early since he won't actually be around on that day. We took the ferry as planned and had a wonderful dinner at my favorite restaurant! He knows what I like! We saved our bread from dinner for VERY cute dog that was outside with the owner. We walked back to the ferry and hung out waiting for the next one. We had a really GREAT time! We weren't out to late because D does have to get up early for work tomorrow but he should be home really early.

Friday, February 10, 2006


Today has been pretty laid back...D went to work for a little while and then came home to sleep. My friend Sally came by today with gifts! She brought this beautiful "My Siren" Tori Amos handbill and this card from! She always seems to know how to make a girl smile.
D is home for a few more days and then he will be off again. Hopefully we can have a nice relaxing weekend before he leaves. The weather has been amazing the last few days and I so wish it would stay this way. I know though that the rain is going to come back and we still have several weeks of cold weather before it will start to warm up!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Happiness is a Warm Gun

So I have been telling D for a long time now that I need something of my own. I started out shooting his Glock .19 and loved it! It took a while to get use to but over all I really liked it and became very comfortable shooting it. Right about the time I became really comfortable with it he decided that he wanted a Glock .27 and so he bought it and sold the the other. I was never able to shoot the new that well and so I need something else. He suggested that since my main concern is protection while he is out of town that I look at revolvers. So today he decided to take me shopping. We spent a long time at the gun store looking. At first I was torn between the Smith 340 and the Smith 642. We made about 4 trips back to the store before I decided on anything. We went to lunch and decided to call around and see if we could find these same models at another store. No such luck. However, while we were calling around we discover that the Lady Smith! So we made one last visit to the store to look at it. I feel in love with this one an finally the decision was made. We filled out all the paper work and will pick it up as soon as D get back home. Monday I am going to get a carry permit and then once he is home he will transfer it to me. It was a long day and I have to say I was EXTREMELY disappointed when we weren't able to leave with it. Since Dan already has an CCP we thought for sure we would be able to buy it right then and leave. When the check came back delayed he called NCIS and spoke directly to the FBI who told him that it was possible delayed because he did not provide his SS# which is optional. Anyway by the time he gets home we can pick it up! I really do have to most wonderful husband! Thank you DB!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Home again

Dan made it home around 5:30 and we pretty much rushed out the door to Best Buy to replace the NEW mp3 player that he had taken on his trip. For some reason it decided to just stop working (after he dropped it) and nothing could be done to fix it. He always makes a point to buy the service plan (which we have used on many different products) so it was pretty easy to go in and get it replace. However, the brand that we had they didn't have in we decided to go with the 60GB Ipod. We did have a pay a small difference in price and they sell the power adapter separately...which D needs for when is traveling. After we were done there we just came home and hung out. He started playing with the Ipod but didn't really get it work right. We aren't at all familiar with the ITunes software so we need to figure that out. After playing with it for a while we spent the rest of the night hanging out and know the rest.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

The Vedict is in...

It only took the jury 12 hours to decide his fate. That simply doesn't seem long enough to me personally. However, the verdict is much like I expected it to be. While his father was without question not a nice person, the step-mother even questionable...there is still the matter of his step-sister. Why he actually killed her we will never know. Now it is up to the judge to decide where he will spend the rest of his life....a prisoner for most if not all of his adult life? Not a nice thought.
I feel that had he only killed his father the outcome of this would be very different. The real questions is does a child have the ability to think things through enough to consider all the options? Or did he simply act out what he saw as his only option.
I know that often with these types of cases the focus falls on the criminal and little attention if given to the this case it is hard to form an opinion on just who the criminal is and the who the victim is. The only clear thing is that his step-sister could have only been as much of a victim as Cody himself. She was a child just as he was. Her fate was was determined for her by Cody and now his to will be decided by someone else.

Monday, February 06, 2006

The Wait

This morning I had a very unexpected phone call. Those are becoming more common these days. Things were starting to get a little calmer around here but that is all about to change.
It does seem that we are going to have at least a few days of no rain. That is always something to look forward to and be thankful for around here. I can't wait to have a few sunny days in a row. We have a small amount of sun here and there but never a whole day.
The trial for Cody Posey has ended and now everyone is just waiting on the jury. I have watched this pretty closely and have really mixed feelings about the whole thing. I don't think it is going take that long for them to decide. I do think the are going to find him guilty it is just a matter of ...guilty of what?

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Crazy/3 trips...2 clips

I thought for some time tonight that I had seriously lost my mind or was at the least in the process of losing it. Thankfully I did a search on Blogger and realized that I was not in fact not using my one way ticket to crazy land. At least not today.
Two of my posts have completely disappeared. One contained my thoughts on the movie Flight 93 and one contained my thoughts on someone who deceivingly displays the role of friend when in fact they are anything but. It was personal and not very detailed meant simply to be a reminder to myself. Sadly, before today I have not saved a backup of my blog so these thoughts are lost forever. To try and duplicate the post would be pointless in my opinion. So may they RIP!
So now that I have cleared up that (mainly for my own sanity) I can move on. Last night I watched Grizzly Man. I love it. He was such a unique guy! I just can't believe he spent 13 summers there with those bears.
I was a little upset about some of the things in the someone saying "He got what he deserved" as if what he was doing something bad...foolish maybe...but not bad. He didn't deserve to be eaten by a bear. Criminals are afforded a more comfortable death than that!! Also, I do not feel like he was responsible for the death of his girlfriend Amy, she was just a little older than me and as I understand it of sound mind. It isn't like he held her captive. Now, I do believe that sometime people "in love" can make foolish mistakes and perhaps this was the case with her. Her mistake could have simply been following the man she loved into a dangers situation. People do this all the time. Still I do not feel that he should take blame. Of course these are just my own opinions and I know many people feel differently.

I'm finally done for the day with all that I had planned for yesterday..I make three trips to Petsmart in Silverdale for the nail clips. Actually Winnie and Amos were the only two who needed a clip but I took Bentley in the car for the ride and walk around the store anyway just to keep everything FAIR! I know most people must think I am crazy but it just isn't fair that he not get the fun of the "trip" just because he didn't need the clip. So three trips and 2 clips...he is the strangest dog though he really bites his fingernails like a person would so we rarely if ever have to have his clipped. The other two need it far more often and so we take them to Petsmart where they charge $8.00. The vet in GA use to do it each time they went in for anything and the clip was free. Southern hospitality I suppose because the vet here wants 22.00 just clip their nails and that is even if they are there for something a check-up or shots anything and the price is 22.00...that is a ripe off. So Petsmart it is.

I am not a true football fan but I am so bummed out about the Seahawks I can't even speak of it!

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Windy in my city...

Wow the wind here today is amazing. I don't think I have seen wind like this since the last hurricane I was in on the East Coast! However, this wind isn't bringing lots of rain which is great!
It is screwing up my plans for today. I had a plan to take the boys for manicures but that clearly isn't going to happen. I can barely walk around outside so driving is out of the questions. On top of the fact that very large trees have a way of falling around here...change of plans. I haven't ever lived any place where trees so commonly fall but then I haven't even lived where there were so many trees. I use to think that Florida had trees but that was nothing compared to here. Washington really makes Florida look like the swamp land that it is.
So today the boys and I are hanging out hoping the power stays on and that the trees stay standing. I did make a few short video clips of the wind for the blog world viewing pleasure. You can click the link at the bottom of the post. The first 4 are in the backyard and the last one in the front.

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Flight 93

All I can say is that having D home for a short time was wonderful! It was short and the time flew by but it was great! It was a reminder of just how lucky I really am.

I have been waiting for months for this movie. While I really do want to see it I know it is going to be very emotional. I just like almost every other American remember just where I was on 9-11 and exactly what I was doing. In my case it isn't very hard to forget. I was standing on a beach with my (now) father-in-law who I had just met for the first time. We together were watching the submarine that my then boyfriend (now husband) was coming home on. This day I will remember for the rest of my life...for many reasons.
As we were standing on the beach with the other parents, gfs, children and wives of the men aboard that boat we had no idea what was going in the world. We didn't have a clue that America would be forever changed as we stood there on the beach on what is normally a very happy occasion. It was homecoming. The most important day of the year to every sailor and every family member. The boat had been deployed for 12 weeks and there wasn't one person present who wasn't ready to throw their arms around their loved one and welcome them home.
We watched the boat enter the channel to make the trip to the pier on the base and as it started to disappear again the group we were with decided it was time to make the short drive back to the the base so that we could met them at the pier. We had been very excited to be on the beach that day...watching the sub come in form there is the most amazing thing. After such a long separation we were just moments away from being reunited.
When we all settled into the car and were just pulling away from the beach there was lots of excited chatter going on in the van we were riding in. We were being escorted by another wife and there were several of us. Her cell phone rang and of course we the passengers were so excited that we paid little attention to her conversation. Until something in her tone and voice changed...then she had our full attention. She calmly explained that the caller (her friend) asked her is she had the TV on. Of course her answer was no. They reported to her that a plane had just flown into the world trade center. Of course at that moment we didn't know it wasn't an accident. I was in an instant state of shock, fear, and disbelief. We turned the radio on and quietly listened to the broadcast finding hard to believe what we were hearing. By the time we arrived at the gate to the base they had shut down the entire facility...which meant nobody got on and nobody got off. There were barricades like I have never seen and marines armed with rifles. It look just like something out of a movie. The was just the beginning.

At the time I live over a 100 miles away from the base but there was no way I was going to leave until I knew where D was and what was going on. We went back the hotel room where his father was staying and we immediately turned on the TV. What we saw was even harder to believe that what we had already heard. By that time they were replaying the video of the 2nd plane hitting. I have never felt as devastated as I did at the moment that I first saw the footage. Hearing something simply does not have the same impact as visual confirmation.

For hours we had no idea where the sub was, where D was or what was going on with him. After waiting as long as I possible could without going completely insane I (through not so conventional methods) found out that the second they hit the pier they were immediately turned around and sent back out. It would end up that they would return (10 days later) the day before his father was to fly back home. I spend most of the time with my future father in law. We were simply passing the time hoping they would soon return.

There is really nothing more that can be said about the tragedy of that day. I will not forget the feelings I felt during that time but they can't possibly compare to what the friends and love ones of those lost felt and I'm sure still feel.

The Heroes

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Is anyone looking?

Yesterday was (as days go) a very interesting day. It rained all night and first thing in the morning our small pond was so over flowing that I had to go out and manual empty some of the water out of it. In the process of feeling much like someone on the prairie hauling buckets of rain water I managed to slip and fall down splashing the water all over myself and hurting my knee. So my day was off to a great start. I still don't understand why it is that when I/people get hurt or fall down our first instinct is to assess who is looking. My first thought isn't "oh my gosh did I break anything? Am I bleeding? Do I need medical attention?" it is more like " Ok who happen to see me looking like a fool? Is there anyone around to witness this?" Of course it didn't help that I was still half asleep and in my pajamas. The end result was I had no broken bones, there wasn't any blood and I did not require any medical attention. More importantly I am pretty confident that there wasn't anyone looking.
The next big event was much more welcome and an even bigger shock than the possibly of someone seeming me slip and fall. A phone call saying D was be home soon. Of course this is a short visit but so very needed! He ended up getting home at around 5:30 and the dog-boys went crazy! The were so excited to see him...we all were.
He spent some time calling family, we did all the normal things a couple would do when they have been apart for a while, had dinner and watch TV! For many people that won't sound all that exciting but for me it was over the top! He hasn't been gone that long but a short time can sometimes seem like eternity!

Monday, January 30, 2006

Cody Posey

Over the last week I have become very involved in the current trial of Cody Posey. I am not sure why I am so taken with young man. It is a very tragic story and while his crime is without question horrific it seem there was so much going on behind the scenes in the life of this young man. Such things as incest, physical and mental abuse . It isn't hard to believe that co-workers and staff of the ranch did not wittiness this abuse. How many child abusers do such things in public? However, other long time friends and family members have testified to the claims of this young man.
The interesting twist in this case is the fact that family live and worked on the ranch in New Mexico of ABC veteran newsman Sam Donaldson. He was the first to testify in the trial. I have read so much about this online and watched most of the trial live. While many people have very mixed emotions about Cody it seems easy to forget that he was only 14 years old when all this took place. It is my opinion so far that he needs treatment not punishment. The fact is clear that either his abuse drove into this or he is simply disturbed in ways that most us can't even begin to understand. Either way he is still just a child.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Is it so bad?

So yesterday I read something on Freedom Girl's blog about a movie and went right out and got it! I recommend that you see her post about it and then see the movie. There isn't anything I could say about this movie that she hasn't said so see her post!
Today I am still trying to work on the newsletter and it just isn't happening for me. I feel like my creative flow has been shut down. I am hoping that next week will prove to be more productive for me as I settle more into this new routine. The weekend seems to be the hardest part so far. I was looking forward to a visit from Sally this week but due to things going on in her own life she wasn't about to make it. She is having a hard time right now and it is my deepest, sincerest hope that everything works out for her. I often fine that my own (so called) problems seem so much bigger to me until I am reminded that in comparison to others they are really very, very small. No matter how I may express myself here in the grand scheme of things my life is a good one and I am thankful for all I have, for the people who love me, the people I love , the simple gift of just being alive and all the many small gift that we all take for granted.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Almost creepy

It is so quiet here today it is almost creepy. Like something out some cheesy horror movie where I am last person left in the world! I called my mom in Florida to make sure this wasn't the case and as it turn out the rest of the world is moving along just fine. The bright side of everything at the moment is that the email for D seems to be working pretty good. While it is taking my emails a little longer to get to him it seem he is at least getting them. This email system can be very sporadic at time and very unreliable. While it isn't up to the minute live email as we all know email to more like electronic snail is some form of communication. These days any is better than none!

Friday, January 27, 2006

My mistake

I didn't blog yesterday because I just had so much going on. It seems everything is cleared up with the miscommunication about D and all of my information has been recorded correctly. This has been my main and only concern for the last week. I wasn't sure what the outcome would be but luckily it has been taken care of.

I realized yesterday that I had not been considerate in getting current information to everyone so I sent an email apologizing. I did not receive any type of reply to the email and feel a little hurt myself. I prefer that when people are upset or angry they tell me directy. However, today I did receive a call from one family member and we had a nice conversation. I again apologized and completely understand why they were upset.
I think everyone is having a hard time dealing with the changes. Things simply aren't as they use to be and that is out of our control. Having a job such as the one that my husband has is not by any means what I consider an easy life. I don't talk about it much here on this blog for one simple reason....I am not allowed. Not having the simple day to day things that other people take for granted is not easy. Spending many holidays and family occasions apart and alone. Not every being able to plan anything for certain. Never knowing where he is or what danger he might be in. Receiving little if any communication for long periods of time and most importantly having to say goodbye to your best friend. In my case my only friend! These are just some of the things that are not easy for other people to understand nor could just anyone do this. With all this considered it can sometimes be very hard to think of others.
I don't have anyone at the end of the day to tell how my week is going. I spend most of my days and all of my nights alone. I repeatedly check my email hoping there might be a simply one line email saying " Hi I am fine and I love you" , there are no hugs, little laughter and even less conversation. Oh I do spend time talking with my dogs. They seem to care, listen and as all canines they are concerned.
While the rest of the world around me goes on as if nothing is whole world has changed. Why would I do this? Why would I live this life. Simply because it is mine.
This is a really hard time for me and hopefully I will be forgiven.

Today was one of those days that I hope for...I was a little surprised because I did receive a short email from D yesterday letting me know that he was ok. It was really nice to hear from him and know that everything is going well. I sent back a short email to let him know that we are good and that I had received his.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

The sun came out...

Tell me this boy isn't happy to see the sun! He sits on The Perch and enjoys a lay afternoon in the sun. Yesterday was one of the most sunny days we have had in months. It was so nice outside...almost in the 50's I think and the sun was bright. I was even able to open the garage door while I was working and the fresh Washington Air was amazing. It actually helped to keep me awake since I wasn't able to sleep much last night. It doesn't seem like all the Tea for Sleep is helping in that area. So I was up late working and slept pretty late today. D says it is good to be up at night because the electricity cost less. I have no idea if he says this to make me feel better or if it is actually true.

I spent a long time on the phone yesterday with my mil and we a great (very long) conversation. Then I spent the afternoon working, watched Flight Plan, ate frozen pizza for dinner while watch Fear Factor and then kept flipping channels to watch Commander In Chief and American Idol. Exciting I know...tell me!
Today I have some website orders to ship and then I plan to work on a newsletter.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Celebration or Protest

The house is so still and quiet is rather odd. I keep thinking my phone is going to ring but of course it won't. It is hard to have a normal routine and then with not much notice it all changes. I catch myself thinking as if nothing were different.

The boys decided to have a party...I'm still not sure if this was a celebration or protest. Winston seems proud to take credit for this although I know it was a joint effort between the three of them. I thought I would share some of what I wake up to each morning. If you have ever had a dog that loves to chase a ball you will be able to appreciate this. Technically I don't speak bark but it isn't to hard to understand this Jack on Crack! These are just two short clips of what goes on for hours...or until I throw the ball. First the the Stare Down then The Fit. (you need to give these a minute to load before hitting play)

For all the other Blackberry users out there (or anyone who knows a BB junkie) I thought you might find this amusing. I am able to laugh at myself and others. While I am not all that bad...this clip reminds me much of D! His dad must of thought the same thing because he is the one who sent it to us!

Monday, January 23, 2006

Blackberry Battle and stuff

Today I went to the Poulsbo shop and set everything up..they liked my products and even stuck a few in the storefront window. Needless to say I was excited about that since all my other items are toward the back of the store. This way at least people will see my items and hopefully wander in to see more. Got to Poulsbo and buy my stuff!!!

I have been following the Blackberry Trials very closely and I have to say it isn't looking good for those of us own them. This has been going on for months and personally I thought it would have been settled by now. Not the I will wait and see and hopefully it all works out or I guess I'll be shopping. For now I am going to hold of on getting the newer one...just in case!

D is officially gone which is a little depressing but hopefully the time will go by quickly. I have lots to work on and to keep me busy but I have such a hard time sleeping when he is away. I am so exhausted today though so I don't think I'll have a problem.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Seahawks & Mile High Club

Well how about the Seahawks!?! Typically we aren't fans of football...I know this comes as a great shock to many people. However, because this is our home we couldn't help but watch this and be a little excited that they won. I think it was more fun to watch the "true" fans and see their excitement. Everyone around here seems to (at least for the moment) be a fan. Everywhere I went today I hear something about the game and thankfully I had watch and at least had a clue.

I saw this on TV and just has to look for myself. I think it is really kind of a neat idea for people who are busy and travel lots. Still for some reason this kind of creeps me out...I don't know maybe because I just recently watched Red Eye...I know not even related. I don't get the connection was just a thought. At least on the ground you can get up and leave if the blind date isn't going well...maybe this is really an underground club for the Mile High Club? I mean I am one of those freaky people who met my husband online so who am I to say what is strange? You read it right...we met on the net...IRC to be exact and that was hmm about 5 years ago and we have been married for almost 3.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

The Pacfic Northwest

This was emailed to me and well I thought it was cute and although I am not sure that I actually know who Jeff Foxworthy is he seems to know the Pacific Northwest! I was actually born in Florida and lived a few places on the east coast before a year ago when we moved here. I can say that these are true to the Northwest! I am not sure if the locals find this funny or not...most of my excitement in moving here had to do with coffee, mountains, and snow in that order! All of those things are great here...the things I miss the most are my friends, sunshine and no rain days in that order. Overall the people here are great, Seattle is an awesome city with a very rich history. I highly recommend the Underground Tour to anyone who might visit the city, we bought a wonderful home that we love, gardening is great here and the spring and summer are beautiful!

You Know You’re from the Pacific Northwest …
According To Jeff Foxworthy
1. You know the state flower (Mildew)
2. You feel guilty throwing aluminum cans or paper in the trash.
3. Use the statement "sun break" and know what it means.
4. You know more than 10 ways to order coffee.
5 You know more people who own boats than air conditioners.
6. You feel overdressed wearing a suit to a nice restaurant.
7. You stand on a deserted corner in the rain waiting for the "Walk"Signal.
8. You consider that if it has no snow or has not recently erupted,i t is not a real mountain.
9. You can taste the difference between Starbucks, Seattle's Best, and Veneto's.
10. You know the difference between Chinook, Coho and Sockeye salmon.
11. You know how to pronounce Sequim, Puyallup, Issaquah, Oregon,Yakima and Willamette. 12. You consider swimming an indoor sport.
13. You can tell the difference between Japanese, Chinese and Thai food.
14. In winter, you go to work in the dark and come home in the dark - while only working eight-hour days.
15. You never go camping without waterproof matches and a poncho.
16. You are not fazed by "Today's forecast: showers followed by rain,"and "Tomorrow's forecast: rain followed by showers."
17. You have no concept of humidity without precipitation.
18. You know that Boring is a town in Oregon and not just a state of mind.
19. You can point to at least two volcanoes, even if you cannot see through the cloud cover.
20. You notice, "The mountain is out" when it is a pretty day and you can actually see it.
21. You put on your shorts when the temperature gets above 50, but still wear your hiking boots and parka.
22. You switch to your sandals when it gets about 60, but keep the socks on.
23. You have actually used your mountain bike on a mountain.
24. You think people who use umbrellas are either wimps or tourists.
25. You buy new sunglasses every year, because you cannot find the old ones after such a long time.
26. You measure distance in hours.
27. You often switch from "heat" to "a/c" in the same day.
28. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit under a raincoat.
29. You know all the important seasons: Almost Winter, Winter, StillRaining (Spring), Road Construction (Summer), Deer & Elk season (Fall).
30. You actually understood these jokes and will probably forward them!

Have a great weekend!

Friday, January 20, 2006

And so...

I have to say the weather is looking much better for us. I'm sure the few people (other than family) who visit this blog are pretty tired of hearing about all the rain. As an apologize I will offer these pictures taken today. You can actually see some sun shining into the house! The rain for now has decided to make home elsewhere. Now if we can only have sun for a while to dry everything out.

D is pretty busy work and still working weird hours so I have kind of been just hanging out around the house and not getting much done. This weekend I plan on working the final details for the display I am setting up Monday in the Poulsbo store. I have so many ideas but a limited amount of space so it calls for some strategic planning on my part. If I like the finally outcome I be sure to post a picture here. I going with the upcoming holiday theme so my hope is that everything sells quickly. Hopefully there are still some people in love out there.

Today I had a visit from my dear friend Sally and with her she brought the most recent catalog for Despair, Inc so we spent some time picking out our favorite and was hard to pick just one. I am torn between IRRESPONSIBILITY "No single raindrop believes it is to blame for the flood " and PRESSERE " It can turn a lump a coal into a priceless diamond- or an average person into a prefect basketcase" of course there are others high on the list but these are at the top.

Also, I have added a link to the sidebar where you can do your part and help pass my potato...or in this case my "tater tot"! You'll be asked to enter your zip code and when you do you will be shown where there tater has been.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

The Perch

You should believe these guys are serious! This area is referred to faithfully as "the perch" in our house. This is where Amos spends most of his time and where all the action takes place when intruders are detected on the property, in the street or even down the block. By intruder I mean the cats from next door, the birds who happen to innocently land for a drink in the birdbath or pond and also anyone else ( human or canine) who will to dare walk down the street. Many wars have been fought from this area and many victory speeches have taken place in this very spot! No doubt at the time this was taken there was some kind of action in the making. Notice the pointy ears...this is always a sign that the storm is coming.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

So much going on...

It seems like there is so much going on in the news right now. This story I have been following very because I feel for this family but also because this in my own backyard. I don't know this person personally but I have seen several of the movies that he appeared in. I hope he is found safe and alive and if that isn't possible I hope he is at least found so that the family can have hopefully have some answers.

This is another thing that really caught my eye is this. This to is close to home for me but something that has been a controversial topic for many many years. I know everyone has there opinion on this. So do I and while I enjoying debating with anyone I respect the fact that everyone is entitled to their own opinions. As they say "Opinions are like assholes cause everybody has one" So where do I stand on this topic you ask? If anyone is truly interested I'd be happy to share my feelings.

Well it hasn't rained today and actually the sun was out for most of the day! Last night there was a final downpour and the wind was just crazy. At the time we went to bed it was so loud I was sure that some of the trees in the backyard were going to fall. The last day that we had wind like that it made our fence in the back fall down. We were lucky though because this time there was no damage.

I want to see this even more now!!!

Monday, January 16, 2006


Today the weather hasn't been any better than the last 28 days! However, we have a promise of a dry day tomorrow and maybe even some sunshine. I know everyone is going to be watching the Golden Globes tonight. I won't be...I just can't get into it this year. I don't even know why. I mean I think I know why...but I can't really say. That is more of the truth.

D is still working crazy hours and our sleep is way off. There was something very creepy on the news today. Yesterday around the time we were in Poslsbo having lunch a body was found floating in Liberty Bay just across the parking lot from where were. I mean it was spotted by someone from the Liberty Bay apartments which means it had to like...well it had to basically float right by us! We didn't see anything going on but then we weren't really paying attention. We were starving so eating was our priority and then the fact that they had no restroom to wash my hands was a small issue. Pretty creepy still that later a 2nd body was found in the same water but a different location. Apparently these are unrelated but this is still some creepy shit!

Today is day 29!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

A little dry...

Today was overall a pretty good day. We didn't have rain until in the evening and the sun actually came out for a few hours. D and I went to Poulsbo and had a burger at a little cafe in the area. The burger was great but the fact that the place is so small that they have no restroom was a bit of shock. I ate this messy thing and there wasn't even a place to was my hands. Then we headed to Silverdale to the Milkbone supply store otherwise known as Petsmart and to Blockbuster to trade in some movies.

I personally can't wait until this comes out on video. The controversy alone is enough to make me want to see it. D and I were talking about it because he overhear someone talking about it and wasn't sure what the deal was so I explained it all to him. I had read this article about it along with some other things that people had to say. I haven't read much about the acting so I have no idea how it really is. Anyone seen it yet? We sort of gave up in going to the movies since we signed up for the BB thing where you can just pay a monthly fee and get as many as you want.

Today is day 28!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Rain, Mud and War

Well I have multiple things to bitch about so I thought this might be a good a place to do so mainly due to the fact I am alone tonight and so who would I bitch to anyway..

1. The rain...the rain is the root of all my bitching! The rain is totally insane here and needs to stop. Because of the rain there is more to bitch about.
2. The dogs are totally bored out their minds since they can't/won't go outside in the rain. Do you have any idea how hard it is for a Jack Russell to be trapped inside all day. I would imagine it being close to asking a two year not to move for 3 hours straight! Because of this my home has become a war zone. They have no way to burn off any energy and so they are starting to fight. I give this picture. A JR bored out of his mind and plotting world destruction or in other words plotting who he is going to torment next!
3. Everything is a mess...everything is wet, muddy and just plain gross! We NEED sunshine! Every time I actually manage to bribe the dog to go outside and pee when we come back inside we bring at least two pounds of mud on the 14 feet coming back through the door! This make it pointless to try and keep the kitchen floor(or anything else for that matter) is freaking impossible!

On top of all this the new working hours that D has suck! Today for no reason at all I was crying...that is when you know it needs to stop raining. We have been doing this crazy lifestyle for many years now and so this isn't anything new for me. I'm just all screwed up in my sleep, the rain sucks and well that is about it!
However, I must add in defense of this region that the spring and summer are the most awesome I have ever experienced if we could just skip the winter and move on!

So if I sound like I am losing it that would be because well because I AM!

Today is Day 27!

Friday, January 13, 2006

Friday the 13th!

Well today is the all dreaded Friday the 13th. I am not superstitious but D on the other hand doesn't like to leave the house on this day. Of course today he didn't have the option to stay at home with work and all. How appropriate though that as of today the Governor of Washington State had declared a State of Emergency here due to all the rain. Not only are there mudslides all over the place people are quickly having to leave there homes due to flooding and roads are washed out all over the place. The homes shown on the tv are really a mess! I am thinking now that we are lucky to be up on a hill. I was actually scared when we bought this house to drive up the driveway because it is such a large hill! Being from Floirda where everything is flat...this felt much like a mountian to me. The rain all drains away from our house so hopefully we won't have any water damage. Now unless the rain draining away from the house were to wash away the dirt and the house falls face first into the street we should be ok.

Today is day 26!