Sunday, November 18, 2007

Hurry up and wait

I have say the time is starting to get away from me. I feel like I am so busy every minute and I just want to stop and take a break. With homecoming on my mind that isn't really an option.

I still have tons to get done and my brother-in-law will be here in just a day or two. It seems like yesterday when he called to tell us he was joining the Navy. It pretty funny how when I think of that it seems like the time has flown bye but when I think about this Mission is seems like it started years ago rather than months.

Totally off topic but I came across this video that I saw a long time ago...just thought I would share it. It is one of my favorites.

I am also rather impressed with this which by the way is long overdue. I just hope they expand this once the pilot program is up and running.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

If this doesn't make you smile...

This is one of those things that just makes you smile. This is Amos (the middle child) of the three. This is his famous "I am cute and you love me pose" which this picture doesn't really do justice.

Friday, November 09, 2007

When time stands still

Overall I am doing good. I think that time has really started to stand still but isn't that better than life flying by so fast you can even hold on.

"I know that change is just around the comer
Before long it will arrive at my door
Once again things be different
Different than they were before"

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Live your own life

"We don't always know what makes us happy. We know, instead, what we think SHOULD. We are baffled and confused when our attempts at happiness fail...We are mute when it comes to naming accurately our own preferences, delights, gifts, talents. The voice of our original self is often muffled, overwhelmed, even strangled, by the voices of other people's expectations. The tongue of the original self is the language of the heart."~ Julie Cameron

We are each unique beings with a unique path in life. If we wish to be fulfilled, we need to go to our own hearts for direction. We might regularly ask ourselves:"What do I really want to do?" "What brings me greatest happiness?" "How can I bring more of these into my life?" Life wants us to go for what brings us most joy and meaning."It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. ...I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing."~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer

"Let me listen to me and not to them."~ Gertrude Stein

"What you must dare is to be yourself."~ Dag Hammarskjold

Saturday, October 27, 2007

A couple things

I know for the few people who do read my blog my last post might have been a little confusing. I am as vague as possible here when I talk about my husband's job. I am sure most of you can understand the security risks involved and have heard of something called OPSEC. If not you can read more about that by clicking here.

Most of what I write of course has meaning for me but might sound like gibberish to everyone else. I did have one email and one comment about what an IA is because of a statement I made in my last post. So for the record and for those who are interested but don't know here is a little basic information.

"A sailors deployed to Iraq is referred to by the Navy as an IA -- or Individual Augmentee. The Navy and Air Force have been tasked to "augment" the Army and Marine Corp in its efforts in the Global War on Terrorism. As such sailors and airmen are sent on TAD orders, serving as soldiers, to Iraq, Afghanistan, GITMO and Djibouti. Sailors receive two weeks basic combat training at Fort Jackson, SC before being deployed. These orders have been for six months to 490 days (15 months)."

The second thing is the term 'Ombudsman" which I believe is similar to the key volunteer program for the Marines. I am sure the Army has their own similar program but I am not familiar with the term they use. Here is the basic description of an ombudsman.

"The ombudsman program was established by ADM Zumwalt in 1970, in recognition of the challenges confronting Navy families. In one of his well-known "Z-grams," the admiral outlined a program -- the first of its kind in the U.S. military -- that provides better, faster communication between Navy families and Navy commands. The ombudsman is the official representative of the commanding officer and serves as liaison between families and the command."

I hope this helps and thank you for reading!

we miss them

I would first like to say that all those in CA touched by the fires are in my thoughts and prayers! I have family there but they are not close to any of the areas.

This week has been overwhelming to say the least. Being an ombudsman and having to give families news that they don't want to hear is the less glamorous side of the job. Oh wait there is no glamorous side is there? Well it just isn't any fun and it does win you any popularity.
Ever hear the saying 'don't shoot the messenger"?

I miss my spouse, my best friend, my lover and the person who tells me "it is all going to be OK" when it seems like it never will. And... so does every other military spouse in the world. No matter where we come from or where we are going (because we are always coming and going) it is the one thread that ties us all together. No matter the branch, rate/rank, first deployment or fifteenth deployment, newlywed or 20 simply miss the one you love.
Of course we smile when we want to cry, take care of our homes when we want to sleep in, hug our children when we need one our self (of the canine sort in my case), work when we feel like quitting and pay our bills but still we miss them.

I won't debate that there are families out there that deal with much more that I could even imagine. My husband is not an IA and I would never compare myself (as I have hear others do) to "being in the same situation" or "at least they have phone calls and email". I am not foolish enough to think it is the same. I am not foolish enough to think it is even close to being the same. I know IA spouses and I know what life for them is like. We haven't spoken to them or hear from them in months but still it isn't the same. What is the same...I miss him.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

I'm so lame

No really I am lame. I have been working on a painting that I am painting for my best friend Cindy. It started out as a birthday gift for her and it still is a birthday gift...sort of. It is coming out great however, it is taking forever. I am almost ashamed to say it but her birthday was on the 12th of this month. Today is the 20th and well yeah it is about half done. So yeah I am lame!

Lucky for me (well not really lucky because I miss her) she lives on the East Coast. So she isn't able to easily show up to physically hurt me for being over two weeks late with her gift. She knows I am working on but I mean really!

So it is my goal to have done by next weekend. I guess writing that here make it more like a real promise to myself and hopefully one I can keep.

Wish me luck!

Friday, October 19, 2007


Powerless...yes that would be me! For the last 24 hours in the dark. This is the season of stormy weather here in Washington and unfortunately it has decided to start off with a bang this year. The last 72 hours have been windy, rainy and cold. The backyard looks like a good old East Coast hurricane came through it. Speaking of the East Coast...I heard thunder today that is good old East Coast thunder for the very first time since we moved to Washington.

The boys and I basically camped out in the bedroom with the oil lamp (that I bought since the last time we spent three days without power) books, the police scanner and hot chocolate made with the luke warm water from the sink. Can someone please tell me why the only time there are weather issues (hurricanes on the East Coast and Snow or power outages on the West Coast) are when Dan is DEPLOYED???

I am thankful that all the trees in the backyard decided to stay rooted. I admit I was worried there for a while. Since the power was out it was quiet (yeah that creepy quiet) and all I could hear were the trees bending and twisting in torment from the "upta" 60 mph winds.

The fence is another story though! There is one section that isn't looking all that great but it hasn't actually fallen over yet either. Hope it hangs in at least until Dan get home or David (his brother) get here from the East Coast.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

And the word is

Well Bentley has his appointment today and I was able to discuss my concern with the vet. He basically told me that if he ever felt there was a problem he would refer me out to someone else. He can preform the test in his office however, there are several different eye conditions that can all present the same symptoms. Also, test ok for one things doesn't mean there isn't another problem. So there isn't really away to know for sure based on one test if there is an issue with the eyes.

I can see where he is coming from and well it all made sense. Medically dogs aren't really all that different. B has a clean bill of health and in the doc's words "he is the perfect dog"! Clearly, the vet has no idea about his real personality as seen here!

Monday, October 15, 2007

These days

It seems like the more I get done the more there is to do. I have been working non stop pouring candles and the orders keep coming. I know for a small business owner that is wonderful but it can get to the point of being overwhelming. I am on the verge of needing to hire help but not quite there yet. Just kind of teetering on the edge...ever been there? I just keep telling myself I can do it all but I only half believe I am telling the truth. So needless to say it is times like this when I really miss my husband and could use those words of encouragement that he is always so willing to give. Trust me I have tried giving myself the "ataboy" but it just isn't quite the same.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

When is "enough" really enough?

I actually never knew that dogs can suffer from glaucoma. This came as news to me when I learned that one of the families in our Command has a little JR that is currently suffering with this. I say suffering and I mean it literally. They have had to remove one eye and perform surgery on the other.

Hearing the story and ordeal that this little dog has gone through it made me think about something. Just where should a reasonable pet owner draw the line? I mean I am the first to say that my pets are my "children' and as any mother there is nothing I wouldn't do to ensure they are happy, healthy, free of pain and out of danger. Even with that in mind I can't help but think of the things people will do and the extremes we are willing to go to to keep them around. I guess I just wonder if they would consent given the opportunity.

With that being said I took two of my boys Winnie and Amos both to the vet yesterday for nail clips or as we refer to them around it mani/pedi day! So while their I ask about the whole glaucoma deal and learned that there is actually a test they can perform in high risk dogs or in my case at the owners request. I was asking because Tuesday Bentley goes in for his annual exam. I wanted to know if this was something that is recommend after a certain age or what might prompt someone to want to have this test done. What that is other than hearing a story and freaking out (like I tend to do) because you "think" your pet might have a problem.

They were nice enough to answer my questions and add a note to my file that I would like to discuss this more with the Vet on Tuesday. So more to come on this!

Saturday, October 13, 2007


Wow I was looking through some old blog posts and came across an VERY old picture of the kitchen. This was when we first replaced the floor. I hated the wallpaper (it was hear when we bought the house) and on one of D's deployment I finally decided it was time to put it to rest. I am just not a fan of wallpaper and when I was trying to remove it I remembered just why that is!

Since then we have painted and all I can say is WOW. This was pretty drastic but we actually love it. I wasn't so sure about this color eve though I was the one who picked it but it turned out great.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

And so

Today seemed rather long. I guess maybe because I spent a lot of time thinking about all the things I need to get done rather that doing them.

D has been gone just a few days short of 12 weeks today! It is starting to seem like forever but then I stop and remind myself that it could be far worse. think I just got so use to him being home that it seems harder than it has been in the past. I do know that I am not the only one who feels that way. There are several ladies who have been doing this much longer that feel the same way.

The BBU order is coming along good and I am basically waiting on the labels from them. Once those arrive I have a plan! A plan that doesn't involve me sticking them on until my fingers bleed that is. I found a way to get some fast short term help that won't cost that much. So that is the plan. Once the first half is shipped I will be halfway there.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Far behind

Well it has been a while to say the least. I have a lot to catch up on or maybe I'll just start over.

The boys are fine and I am fine but we do miss D! He has been deployed for a few months now and I simply miss him. It has been a long summer without him hear and now that winter has arrived it isn't any better!

The days are getting so cold and short with nights so long. I guess the weather change is a good thing though since it means time is moving forward and soon he will be home.

Cindy came to visit this summer and it was wonderful. I was great to have a friend around for a couple of weeks after spending so many alone. I missed her of course when she left but it was still great for her to be here.

Except for the part where I cracked the LCD on my laptop. A great example of a not so good time. However, I am glad I listened to myself and not others. I found a perfect replacement on Ebay for a tiny bit of the price HP wanted to replace it.